frustrated!!

kadang-kadang ktew x expect yg ktew akn sakit aty cmpai cmni..pew gnew yew kawan kalo sumew hanya tok sakit kn aty jew???bek idop sowg jew dlm dunia ni..xperlukn sesiapa pon..aty pon xla sakit mcm ni..dew kawan pon, ktew still asew lonely..feels like nobody with me..why it's always be me to be hurt by people that i really care??i didn't blame it to all my friends..but most of them are juz people who wanna have fun..i didn't ask for them to understand me all along..but how can they do this to me..it's like i mean nothing to them..juz using me for their own benefits and look up for me whenever they alone and needed my help..mcm tu kew ktew panggil kawan for life???napew susah sgt nk cari kawan yang betol2 setia n baik??da xdew lg kew dlm dunia ni??kawan ramai pon xgnew..ni kn pulak kalo ak ni xramai kawan..tapi most of my friends are that kind of person who are juz come to me whenever they feel needed..i felt really betrayed by my own my friends!!!lagi baik ktew jaohkn diri daripada ktew marahkn owg mcm tu..kalo ktew marah skali pon..nothing will change..relationship will never be the same again..i'll be better if i juz stay away before it getting more worst..i don't want anything bad happen in my friendship..i love my friends more than i love myself..bila ktew jaohkn diri..at least ktew bleh lg nk jmp n berbual bersama..idop kt dunia ni mmg la xsemua yew bahagia n elok..byk cabaran n dugaan yg akn ktew hadapi..semakin diri ktew matang,makin byk la masalah yg ktew kena selesaikn..sepatut yew bila ktew da makin matang, ktew xptot menyakitkn aty sahabat ktew sendiri..tp pew yg jadi plak adalah yg sebalik yew..biar la..wat msew ni ak masih bleyh bertahan lg..pew yg akn jadi lepas ni hanya Allah yg tahu..